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Friday, August 21, 2009


Life has it's ups and downs, but right now, at this point of time, my life is screwed. It's like entering a bottomless pit, it's like a series of unfortunate events. I like to call it the FSD (Farking Sad Day).

My parents act like as if i'm the only child in the family.
No, i'll rephrase myself, i'm the only child in the family when it comes to stuff no one wants to do.

This is a conversation between my mum and i...

Mum: 'I want you to shift the new bed into your room on Sunday, and throw away the current bed.'
Me: 'Ok...But why don't move now? Anyway i'm free'
Mum: 'Cannot, Kah Ming got papers tomorrow'
Mum: 'And i want you to drill a hole on the wall on Sunday, because i want to hang something on it.
Me:'But i got papers on Monday.'
Mum:' Then do it on Saturday'
Me:'Then why not do it now?'
Mum:'Now so late already, somemore you come back so late, we all waiting for you'
Me:'Then Kah Ming? He came back so early today, why never ask him drill?'
Mum: *walks away*

It's really sad...I mean, it's crap lar, just crap.
So much for family eh?

My MSN can't work, and my blogger got serious problems, i can't post pictures, and the format is shit. Wanted to post a screenshot to show you guys, but as i said, i can't.

And i guess i'm starting to piss people off, ok, maybe i'm just assuming.But then again, maybe i didn't, haha! And yea, i'm starting to be sensative.

I guess this is the moment when everything falls apart.Hope it'll rebuild itself, i'll need all the support i can have.In life, setbacks are inevitable, it depends on how you see things...As for now, i'll pray everything goes back to normal when i wake up the next morning.

Goodnight.




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Wednesday, August 12, 2009


To All My Friends Out there.

To all my friends who are Single,
Love is like A butterfly
The More you chase it, the more it eludes you.
But if you just let it fly, it will come to you when you least expect it.
Love can make you happy but often it hurts,
But Love is only special when you give it to someone who is really worth it.
So take your time and choose the best.

To All my friends who are not so single,
love isn’t about becoming somebody else’s perfect person.
Its about finding someone who helps you become the best person you can be.

To all my friends who are playboy/Girl type,
Never say “I love you” if you don’t care.
Never talk about feelings if they aren’t there.
Never touch a life if you mean to break a heart.
Never look in the eye when all you do is lie.
The cruelest thing a guy can do to a girl: Is to let her fall in love
when he doesn’t intend to catch her fall and it works both ways.

To my friends who are engaged,
the true measure of compatibility is not the years spent together
but how good you are for each other.

To my friends who are married,
love is not about “its your fault”, but “I’m sorry”
Not “where are you”, but “I’m right here”
Not “how could you”, but “I understand”
Not “I wish you were”, but “im thankful you are”

To all my friends who are heartbroken,
Heartbreaks last as long as you want and cut as deep as you allow them to go.
The challenge is not how to survive heartbreaks But to learn from them.

To all my friends who are naïve,
How to be in love: be consistent but not too persistent,
share and never be unfair,
understand and try not to demand,
and get hurt but never keep the pain.

To all my friends who are possessive,
it breaks your heart to see the one you love happy with someone else.
But its more painful to know that the one you love is unhappy with you.

To My friends who are afraid to confess,
love hurts when you break up with someone.
It hurts even more when someone breaks up with you.
But love hurts the most: when the person you love has no idea how you feel about him/her.

To all my friends who are still holding on,
a sad thing about life is when you meet someone and fall in love,
only to find out in the end it was never meant to be,
and that you have wasted years on someone who wasn’t worth it.
If that person isn’t worth it now,
its not going to be worth it in a year or 10 years from now.

To all my friends,
my wish for you is a Girl/ guy whose love is: honest, strong, mature, never-changing, protective , encouraging, rewarding and unselfish.

'This was taken from one of my closest friend, Mannan.
I wanted to upload his picture, but there's something with the webpage, maybe next time.
If anyone of you are interested in a real life DOMO, please feel free to drop me a text or something. Cuz Mannan looks somewhat like DOMO, cute eh?haha!


Last night, i was so damn stressed, gota rush through many things.
Felt damn farked up and helpless, the pressure and stuff.(ok, i'll stop here, it's getting emotional,haha!)

Then i received this e-mail from this girl, which made my night. :D
'hello baby. good luck in you doing your work, but rmb to sleep also k? love you ttm! goodnight. <3'

I smiled after reading it. (:
She's none other than Eileen.
It really mean much to me...






Thank you Dear, i love you too.




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Monday, August 10, 2009


Alright, it's been quite awhile since i've last blogged. My dear girl Eileen wants this post to be long, so i'll dedicate this post to her. (:

Last week was somewhat like an emotional roller coaster for me. Thursday was not really easy going, but just when i thought it was over, Friday came.
I was already feeling bad, and i went to the atrium, and Radio Heatwave was playing this certain song, which made me feel worse.

This song is called 'The Reason'



Ok, it's supposed to be a nice song, but played at the wrong time.

But we got through it :D
Things that dosen't kill, makes people stronger...The same goes for love. (:

Haha, my right hand is shivering as i'm typing all these, i don't know why...
Anyway, went out to study with Eileen at Holland V.
Went to Cold Rock first, but then we decided to check out 3 moneys cafe.
On the way, saw Frolick, and she got so excited, haha!

To Eileen: We'll go have some Froyo after our papers, alright? Just you and me (:

So we decide to have some ice cream at Cold Rock, and guess what?
The song that was playing in Cold Rock is...The Reason.

Haha, Eileen and I looked at each other and smile. (:

Recently, things that have been happening between us actually replays itself, but in our everyday life.
One example...

She sent me a message, but i didn't receive it, and i asked her to send again.
And then, we both overheard this conversation between this guy and a girl...

Girl:' The sms i sent you, you read anot?'
Guy:' Huh? what sms? i didn't recieve it..Send again leh'
Girl:' Never receive then too bad!! HAHA!'

Then Eileen and i looked at each other and laughed. :D
Guess what she said next? the same exact words that girl said to the guy.

Ok, randomness...

Moving on, yesterday, i went to watch the national day celebration, not in the stadium, cuz i don't have the tickets, but i was right beside the stadium.

The helicopter flew so damn close, it was crazy! I wanted to jump on it, haha! but that would really be crazy!
The fireworks was good, but not as awesome as the new year countdown. One of my friends(i forgot who) told me that there would be a fireworks competition real soon, hope i won't miss out on it.

Anyway, we were talking and this was what happened...

Yi Xin:' I don't go for looks'
Me: *looks at Sean* 'Yea, true, true. I can see that' :D

Went to look for my chipmunk (Eileen) after the celebration.Bought some cotton candy for her, but she wasn't feeling well, so she returned it.Anyway, i was telling her bout the conversaion Yi Xin and i had...Guess what she said?

Eileen:'I also don't go for looks what'
Me: *speechless*

Of course, Sean was laughing his ass off. Haha! Couldn't give a damn, i had my fun anyway. (:
But i still love her. :D

Alright, im gona wake up early tmr, and i'm gona make breakfast for her. (:
It's been a long time since i've last did that. Erm, 3 years?

Goodnight peeps! (:




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Tuesday, July 28, 2009


Had quite a day today...

First started out,was supposed to meet Eileen at NP bus stop, but i woke up late, DAMN!
Met up with her in the library afterwards...i guess that's the only good thing that has ever happened today. (:

WA,i actually skipped lessons for the whole day, WTF!
First was to study for my test, then i went to accompany Dan in the library.

Had Sub-comm head meeting.
My committee's proposal got rejected, yet another WTF!!!

Went for dinner with Sean, Yi Xin, Mannan and Daniel.
Headed down to j8 afterwards, then home.

3 letters to describe my day... F.S.D(F*cking Sad Day) other than seeing her,haha!

Got lotsa things to do...Exams are around the corner, gota do my ECE magazine, gota come up with a new proposal...~!@#$%^&*() !!!!!



You two are my Bros,i won't let anything happen.


And she's sick, down with fever. ):
Gota do something bout it. (:
She's gona be so damn touched, haha! i hope...

Get well soon...i love you.



'Just seeing your smile makes my day' :D




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I don't really know what to type, haha!
Took a personality test a few weeks ago (yea, i know it's kinda old)
This was what i got...

Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:
You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:
You have many goals and want to achieve as much as you can. The jobs you enjoy are those that let you burn off your considerable excess energy.

How do you view success:
You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.




It's damn accurate. (:




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Wednesday, July 15, 2009


AH LAI! It's tiring so far, lotsa things on my mind, AGM next week, projects, homework, WTF!

Anyway, nothing much to blog about...
Josiah, Daniel and Sean had this booth today, which sells handmade stuff, damn cute. I made a keyboard for myself, i'll take pics of it when it's done. (:

Went for some SU meeting afterwards, then accompanied Dan and Mannan to Novena. So happen that a squirrel was there also :D

So went there, had my dinner, then met up with Eileen. (:
Walked around and stuff, then waited for the bus with Eileen and her sister, Emily.

We were all sitting down on some steps, when Eileen saw a cocroach...and yeap.

Eileen:'EMILY! GOT COCROACH!'
Eileen and Emily: *Screams*
Wa lau, their screams are really, wa!
Me: 'Haha!'

After awhile...
Eileen:' Where's the cocroach?'
Me: 'erm, *points to her feet*'
Elieen and Emily:' *AAARRRRGGGGHHHH!!!*
Wa, this one is the siao one! Everyone was looking.
I was laughing like crap though, CUZ THERE WASNT ANY COCROACH AT ALL! :D
HAHAHAHAHA!!!! GULLIBLE! :D


Still remembered last night, i went for dinner with Eileen, at Long John Silver.
I annoyed her as usual...So she took her food and moved to the table beside us.

Me:' Come back lar'
Eileen:' Don't want!'
Me:' You don't come, i go arh'
Eileen:' Ok, you go lor, BYE!'
Me:' What bye?! I mean you don't come over here i'll go over there!'
Eileen:' hahahaha!'
She moved in the end. I guess i'm too irresistable. :D





It's pass 12am...
Our third month. (:
Ok, i know it's only 3 months, but it's just the beginning.
I'll always remember, 8+8= 16, not 8+6 :D
Whatever i wana tell you, i've written it down already.
You wouldn't want everyone to know what i've written, right? haha!
Just wana tell you that i really love you. (:




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Saturday, July 11, 2009


Alright, guess everything's back on track now.
My wound's gone, got all my test papers back (didn't do really well, except for only one paper),not much problems so far.

Been doing nothing much lately, just meetings and more meetings.
Started watching Red Thread recently, quite a good show i must say.

It's bout this blind guy named Alex (Adrian Pang). He lost his wife due to some reasons, and he's back for revenge (:

Mannan introduced me this song a few weeks ago, it's called 'Never say Never', by The Fray. IT'S FREAKING AWESOME!




There's some things we don't talk about
Rather do without
And just hold the smile
Falling in and out of love
Ashamed and proud of
Together all the while

You can never say never
Why we don't know when
Time and time again
Younger now than we were before

Don't let me go
Don't let me go
Don't let me go
[X2]

Picture you're the queen of everything
As far as the eye can see
Under your command
I will be your guardian
When all is crumbling
Steady your hand

You can never say never
Why we don't know when
Time, time and time again
Younger now then we were before

Don't let me go
Don't let me go
Don't let me go
[X2]

We're pulling apart and coming together again and again
We're growing apart but we pull it together, pull it together, together again

Don't let me go
Don't let me go
Don't let me go
[X4]


By the way, i learnt that there's another meaning to FTW (For The Win), it means 'F**K The World'. HAHA!




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